Hello Sunday

Today I slept through Yoga at 12:30. I did this last Sunday. I didn't have any gym clothes anyway. I took a 2.5 hour bath. I had a two hot chocolates and two Quaker granola bars. In the bath. The mug I used was the same brown mug I have been using every day for the past few weeks. I use it for my chai tea, my hot chocolate, and my strawberry-flavoured meal replacement drinks. I wash it a few times a day. This saves me from washing other dishes. My favourite meals are liquid anyway. Earlier this week I knocked the mug full of hot chocolate into the hot bubble bath, before I had had a sip of the hot chocolate or stepped into the bath. I emptied both and started over. The mug has a small chip in it now.

The three newest bites on my shin have turned bright red and have clearly defined outlines. There is a dot, then a pinwheel, then another dot. Actually, the pinwheel looks more like a pink uterus. It has a small satellite dot. Last night or the one before, I pulled all my leghair out over the bites, to make the cortisone cream easier to apply. The bite(s) on my wrist are just as itchy, but are not visible.

As I got out of the tub today, I felt dizzy, which meant I had missed a pill. I made another hot chocolate to take the pill with, but the drink is still too hot. Because I feel "off", I will open the X-tended Release capsule and wash down the white pellets, for more immediate effect. In theory.

Between getting out of the tub and boiling the water, I started to cry. I let out a few sobs, teared, then stopped. Observed, detached. Was I sad? No. Well, I think not. Wait... A few more sobs, tears. I blow my nose, dry my eyes. It seems to be over. Am I sad? I'm not sure what emotions are mine and which are the drugs and which are the withdrawal from the drugs. I'm too chicken-shit to get off the drugs. I should take them more conscientiously.

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My bites are itchy. I have no clean clothes to wear to the laundry room to wash my clothes, because the bugs have been living in the clean clothes in my drawers. I am not hallucinating. I have the bugs in a Ziploc bag.

Days off are too much pressure. It's hard enough to distract myself between work and sleep. An entire day alone is overwhelming. I feel a responsibility to do something other than sleep past noon, bathe, sit naked on my couch scratching my insect bites. I have my duvet to pick up from the cleaners and a package from the post office, but neither is open on Sundays. I always go to sleep early on days off.

Scraping hot chocolate powder off a double-pointed knitting needle, I think - I should call someone. I think - is this crazy, or just lonely. Is this me, or just the meds? I think - is this a cry coming on? I think - what will people think.

And we're back!

Best news first: my package from WhimzyPinzy arrived! To celebrate, kitten and I took some overexposed pictures. =)



Nona did her very best to be in each of the pictures, despite being firmly pushed off the table more than once. So, once the yarn-mail was done being photographed, I let her pose, too.



Isn't she photogenic! It almost makes up for what a horrible photographer I am. =) Anyhow, the package got me all excited about the Red Panda Purse again, so I finished Kitchenering the seams on the orange base and felted it all nice and round.



... okay, sure, it looks exactly like the Orange You Glad purse... for now. But using your imagination together with this picture...



Maybe not. I'll just have to finish it quick so I can show it off! I actually have no idea how I'm going to make/attached the ears as of yet. Well, I'll probably make them in the round with matching decreases like a sock toe, but the whole attaching business is still up in the air.

In other knitting news, I've turned the heel on the second Lombard Street Sock. I've also discovered that just after turning the heel is not the most convenient moment to model the sock with the needles in. >.<





Awesome! Not only are those both terrible pictures (the socks are burgundy, not black!), but the internet is going buggy on me. So, until next time...

Bye!